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14/05/25: my friends have been talking about their goals or dreams alot recently. it made me realize i don't have alot of my own, so.. i'll change that.

1. i'd like to get better at coding! my friends say i'm good now but not good enough!

2. get better at art! i need to finesse my color theory and digital painting!

3. go outside more!! i have friends that love me, and if i want to see them i need to get used to being outside!

4. i'd like to get back to a point where i can go back to school or an actual job again!! that would be nice!!

maybe these are kind of silly but i don't want to be a digital girl forever! i can do this i can do this i can do this I CAN DO THISSSS

15/05/25: i guess my mood is very dependent on how people interact with me, but that's just being a human probably. my friends keep talking about school and being stressed out by it. ive been able to ignore it for a while i mean its not my fault i couldnt attend classes but now its starting to idk. weigh on me. it makes me feel useless. why do they get to go outside and be okay with everything while i'm stuck inside in the same place constantly? it's not really fair. it's not their fault, it's mine, but it's not really fair. i don't get why i'm like this or why i'm so jealous over them. i just wish i could do what they do

they all say i'm overworking myself and max has offhandedly mentioned it a few times but i don't know. can i overwork myself when it's something like this? who cares if i'm in pain from all this work? it'll make a great portfolio. i need to get better no matter what even if my wrists fall off i'll never stop coding because it's the one thing in a long time i've been good at that not many other people are. my dad hasn't been this impressed in a while and neither have they nobody even tells me my art is fucking good anymore. i think im gonna play minecraft. bye

18/05/25: i'm going out with a friend tomorrow! i haven't been out with someone in a while.. it's just to catch up, but on tuesday we're seeing a movie together too! i'm not really nervous weirdly. i used to get so so nervous when i was in highschool and i would always cancel but i just dont really care this time. maybe its just because its the night before. oh and i debuted v2 im so happy about how it turned out. i need to add more stuff though, like a real time clock, taskbar and maybe some more icons for stuff. i just wanna make the site packed to the brim!!

music.txt

gonna be fr this is a .txt because i don't have alot of music right now. i really like vocaloid and plan to learn breakcore and vocal synths using teto and meaty-chan in the future but rn i'm all in on coding >_<

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webrings.exe

webmaster.exe

i webmaster alot of webrings hehe i love saying that. but the most prominent is the pokering! you'll want to go here for more details! the second most prominent one is the webular webring, which is currently closed unless you are part of the stellular community! sorry about that!

art.exe